I've been wanting to update this for a while. And now that I have a chance I feel like I don't know what to write.

Ah! Whatever comes to mind, comes to mind lah.

Tired. Reason being the lack of sleep. Not like I have a lot of work or anything. Infact, right now I'm on a bit of a holiday. Noooo.... the reason for the lack of sleep is that I've been playing online games. Ragnarok to be exact. Darn thing's so darn addictive. So instead of updating my diary when I'm online, guess what! I'm playing ragnarok. But hey, I have been working hard. The last shoot was a tiring 30 day shoot with 2 other shoots scheduled any days I had a break from the main shoot. And, instead of going home to sleep, I've been playing ragnarok. My face is paying the price for it. Starting to look haggard. Infact, I look like I'm getting old. You know what's scary? Can feel it too... I remember hearing, while I was growing up, all the stories of what it's like when you're in the thirties. How your body is not like what it used to be. Have to do warm ups, gotta exercise, control what you eat, feel fatigued faster, etc, etc... But jeezzzzz... to actually feel it is something else! Suddenly, I'm like "Why didn't you take better care of yourself?!? You had those thoughts in the back of your head! Why didn't you do something about it?!?!?!?!? Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! Bodoh! *sigh*... Self abuse comes so easily.

Did a lot of shoots since last update. In December, shot "Gangsters" and did some small appearances for tv dramas. January, shot a terribly produced drama called "Anak Malaynium", which was a shame though as it had a good concept and story. They made me very angry as I informed them from the start that I wanted to take the whole month of feb off but they overran by a week and didn't even compensate me for it. March, appeared in some episodes of "Celebrity Squares" and "Ah-Ha". Both programs made me very, very nervous as I don't know how to be funny on screen. I mean I know I can be funny, but it doesn't happen when I want it to, ya know? The whole time I was thinking I have to come up with something funny. I have to come up with something funny, but my mind was blank. When Harith asked me if I had any ideas, I started laughing and told him no. I think doing comedy is very bad for your health. I also shot "Ampang Park / KLCC", I'm excited to see this one. I didn't realise it, until I went to do some dubbing for editing, but I came up with a really nice character. In April, the 30 day very disorganized and unreliable shooting of "Sephia".

LAST FIVE ENTRIES

Over - Sunday, Aug. 21, 2005
A short ramble - Monday, Jul. 18, 2005
Results - Saturday, Jul. 09, 2005
A book understanding - Monday, Mar. 28, 2005
Soreness - Tuesday, Mar. 15, 2005