Woah... Birthday messages. I didn't even think of putting in an entry for my birthday. But thanks for the wishes guys!

Actually I didn't do much for my birthday. I treated it like any other day, which is usually how I treat my birthdays. I get a little uncomfortable about getting so much attention for being born on that day. It's not like I had a say about it or anything like that, you know. I know some people make such a big deal out of their birthdays and I'm fine with that, but does that mean that the rest of the days of the year are insignificant or even meaningless? I bring this up because some people I know get so worked up about their birthday. And it seems that that's the only day worth living for. And I wonder, "So what about the rest of the year?" And a lot of the time these people that I see who are like that end up getting dissappointed, because the birthday didn't turn out quite like how they wanted it. And I feel so sad for them. One is because of the dissappointment. The other is because... GOOD GRIEF!!! There's another 364 days to live for! And when I see that, sometimes I get so geram and frustrated that these people are so blind with such bad attitudes. Cause there is so much to celebrate about. I've been doing a lot of dream building these past few months, which is going out there window shopping and looking at all the things that are out there to do, experience, to own, and anything else that's exciting. And I used to think I had dreams, that I knew what vision is. But I had no clue. And only found out when I started looking at the things that are available to us. And, my god, there is so much out there. So many things to experience out there. So many things to desire (in a good way). I started listing down all the things I'd like to do like rock climbing, golfing, racing, traveling, holidaying, movie-going, dating, gaming, computing, writing, acting, learning, directing, creating, playing, dancing, gym, flying, boating, fishing, bungee-jumping, hang-gliding, etc, etc, etc and etc. And I discovered something interesting. I couldn't think the same way if I wanted to do all these things, and I only gave a brief list. Normally I think my schedule in weekly terms, but if I wanted to do all the things I want to do on a regular basis then there's not enough time in a week. I had to think in terms of two weeks or three weeks or even four. Cause some things I can do daily, somethings weekly but others I could only do bi-weekly or monthly or even every other month or less. This is significant to me, because it made me realize that perhaps I'm not that big of a thinker that I thought I was. It made me realize that there's still so much I don't know. And I know that I there's alot I don't know, but this whole experience is like a big reminder.

In a way, I guess, that's one of the reasons why I try not to make such a big hoo-ha about my birthday; I too don't want to get dissappointed but I also have a lot more to live for.

LAST FIVE ENTRIES

Over - Sunday, Aug. 21, 2005
A short ramble - Monday, Jul. 18, 2005
Results - Saturday, Jul. 09, 2005
A book understanding - Monday, Mar. 28, 2005
Soreness - Tuesday, Mar. 15, 2005